This one was kind of a hard read, but not in the sense that it was hard to work my way through, but that I...well, I guess I can say I struggled with it...emotionally.
It's about a woman, a woman telling her story, a story of falling in love, getting married, having a child, following her husband through numerous moves as he chases his personal big rock candy mountain, then his betrayal, departure, and (briefly) her life after marriage. During their time together, sometimes he is making a lot of money, mostly he is not. And our protagonist suffers through a kind of cold, anonymous existence as she does most of the bread-winning, the child-rearing, and, it would seem, the work to keep the couple's relationship alive, but gets no recognition or validation or even gratitude from her husband for doing it.
And when I write that out it reads like a pretty real paradigm for many women. For some women, the novel may be cathartic. Or excruciating.
For me, in reading this book I felt...indicted. But let me be clear: I am by no objective standard the failure of a partner the husband she's describing is and still I felt indicted. Just because. I guess. I'm a man. A husband. A father. And...I guess I feel like I never quite live up to the ideal or standard I've set for any of those identities. So when I read the part where she complains that her husband never cleaned the bathroom, I felt so guilty that I nearly raced home to the cleaning supplies and got after it. I cleaned and wiped and disinfected every surface of that bathroom.
Here's a passage I found poignant enough to copy out:
Even a decent marriage drains the life of a woman. And during our worst fights, I referred to a divorce as a sure thing and impending, yet I don't know anyone with a better marriage. It really is absolute shit being a man's wife. I swear up and down that if I outlive this marriage I will never be with a man again.
Well...
So, I read this book and sorta felt like garbage (the bathroom needed cleaning anyway, so that's a positive outcome), but then a day or two later, as I was just sort of thinking about it, I came to wonder if we're meant to fully trust the narrator. See, the book is told from the perspective of the woman who's story it is. She's been rebuffed. She's lost her husband. She's lost her youth. She's kind of just...lost. But that's the thing--it's her story, and, well, in the very beginning she calls herself a liar, which is, you know, kinda like the title of the book, too. And so I began to rethink it all.
For those that have read (or watched) Fight Club, you might remember getting to the end and realizing a thing and suddenly you have to reinterpret everything you've read to that point. That's sort of where I was. After a couple of days reflection, anyway.
I've read zero book reviews or author's interviews, so I have no idea if this is the author's intention or if other readers have had similar takes. I kinda don't want to know. Because this is the beauty and wonder of art, that we can all see the same thing, yet walk away with very different experiences. Or, in my case, two distinctly different experiences.
3.5 of 5 stars.